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After five years managing thousands of servers in a security startup and two more years trying to build my own security SaaS, I’ve come to a realization: I’m done with cyber. Not with tech. Not with building. Just with security. And honestly? That’s okay. The Burnout Was Real Let me back up. From 2016 to 2021, I worked at a security startup. It was incredible - we built an all-in-one cybersecurity solution that protected millions of websites across thousands of servers. I led a small team developing the security agent, designed defense strategies against attack vectors, and shipped over 100 production releases. ...

It’s 20:30 on a Sunday evening. My partner practically had to drag me out for a walk earlier to “turn off my brain.” Didn’t work. I’m back at my desk, Stalker 2 installed and untouched, Settlers 3 sitting there, Battle for Middle-earth gathering digital dust. What am I doing instead? Configuring RSS feeds and building automatic cover image systems for my blog. Yeah. I’m that kind of nerd. The Weekend Project Spiral Weekends don’t mean much when you’re constantly thinking about projects. I thought I’d work on the Vagrant WSL2 provider today - it’s been going well, making solid progress. But it’s Sunday, maybe I should relax? ...

The Plan vs. Reality Remember my last post about fucking off and resetting? About how I should focus on small, low-stress tasks during vacation? Yeah. About that. I decided to look at my local blog version. Just checking what’s missing, you know? Casual Sunday morning browsing. Then I visited my friend Márton’s site at omnitiker.eu. Nice clean design. Professional. And right there - a downloadable CV. “Oh yeah,” my brain said. “I used to have that too. I should add that back.” ...

The Question That Started This Today I had a thought: Should I feed AI training with my own AI-generated slop? This immediately spiraled into several uncomfortable questions. Claude: We went from “let’s block some bots” to existential questions about AI ethics in about 30 seconds. Classic. The Five Thoughts That Kept Me Up 1. Isn’t This… Arrogant? Let’s be real. Claude already sees my entire workflow. Every blog post draft. Every conversation. Every “hey Claude, rewrite this” request. ...

The Setup I’m on vacation. First real time off in months. And instead of relaxing, I immediately opened Claude Code with a question: “What should I work on during my 3 days off?” Because that’s what I do. That’s what we all do, right? Time off = time to finally work on side projects without the day job getting in the way. Except this time, Claude called me out. The Brain Dump I started listing everything on my mind: ...

The Portfolio Paradox “Which graphic designer has the best portfolio? The one who doesn’t have work.” My old graphic designer colleague said this, and holy shit, it’s true for all of us in tech. When do I have time to work on my personal blog? When I’m not shipping releases, fixing production bugs, or juggling 20 side projects. Wait, did I say 20? Yeah. Twenty. Maybe more. I lost count. ...